Planning 1st birthday ... Already

This year has flown by. I can't believe I am sending out invitations to my little ones 1st birthday. 

I haven't updated In forever. 

They have teeth! 3 each almost 4. 

Gentry is trying to walk. She will take about 10 steps! It's pretty much the sweetest thing ever. Bennett really doesn't care to walk. He knows all he has to do is crawl and he can get there pretty quick. 

Gentry is in 9 month clothes and Bennett is in 12-18 months

She weighs 18lbs and B is 23lbs 

Not sure on their length but he is at least 3 inches taller ( I think) 

They wave BYE BYE and clap when you say YEAH! 

They are dancing fools. 

Their favorite song is TINY TURTLE. It's a preschool song that their big sister taught  us. Super cute song and they will get down to it. 

In the car Gentry loves to listen to Chris Stapleton. Bennett still loves Tim McGraw. 

They love playing in their playroom together. You can hear them giggling at each other when your in the other room. 

Gentry is a little bully she takes everything from her brother. Yesterday I heard Bennett crying and I went in to see what the problem was and he was trying to crawl across the trampoline and she was bouncing on his back .. She was laughing so hard. 

Staying home with these two has been so crazy. Most days I look like a homeless person when Jeremy gets home. If I am not sitting down or playing with them they are upset. They want me all the time. It's the greatest feeling ever 

Except when you want to go to the bathroom or get something done. 

If your wondering things don't get done at my house. I am the worst stay at home mom. 

8 Months - I am a little behind

Things have been a little hectic around our casa! 

Bennett and Gentry are something else. 

They are both sitting up scooting and trying to stand. Gentry Lynne yells for her dada all day long and Bennett crus for him momma. They follow you everywhere you go tugging at your pants. These last couple of months have kicked my butt to say the least but I seriously wouldn't have it any other way. 

Neither one of them sleep through the night and definitely not on the same schedule. They wake up every 2-3 hours wanting a bottle or just plain wanting to scream. I think it may be teething because they are clean and have eaten. So that's what I am going with haha. 

They had their first sleep over with their Nonna because we were exhausted and I was starting to get sick. So we decided that it was the perfect time for them to have a sleep over. 

I was a nervous wreck and so was Jeremy but they did just fine. 

The twins first trips/ Holidays will be updated soon 

Trying to play catch up 

8 Month Picture 

My babies are getting so big so fast

I'm 16 Weeks old already. 

It's been a busy few weeks some becoming a stay at home mom. By the way I suck at it. I can't seem to get anything done. Laundry is never caught up and I mean NEVER! 

So babe ..hopefully I will get better at this. 

Few pics 

Today Bennett had a low grade fever and was throwing up none stop.It freaked me out that I called the Pediatrician office. They told me to give him pedialite to see if he could hold it down and of course he couldn't. So we called them back and they said take him to the Urgent Care. 

I feel like I am a first time mother all over again. Them getting sick scares me so much. We had both babies check out 

Bennett weighs 13lbs and Gentry weighs 11lbs. No fevers of course.. I can never judge of they have fevers or not. To me they feel hot everyday. The Dr stated they have a GI virus that is going around 

Nothing that a little pedialite and medicine for nausea wouldn't cute.. Praying this helps. 

Young and Beautiful - Lana Del Ray

This song literally breaks my heart Everytime I hear it. I play it atleast 10-15 times a week. Not sure why I do that to myself but I feel like it helps me.  It was one of my stepmoms favorite songs. They played it at her funeral along with a slideshow of pics of her. 

During such a happy time in my life I  feel heartbroken everyday. I just wish this feeling would go away. Will it ever go Away? 

Being so happy this past year makes me feel so guilty. Shelly was dying and I was here celebrating being pregnant.  How could I not be there for her. How did I not know things would end like this. 

Why didn't I text her everyday? Why didn't I call? Did I tell her that I loved her enough? Did she know how much i loved  her? Did she know that she was one of my best friends even though the past year wasn't our greatest. 

I will never be able to hear her voice again or her laugh. My babies will never know her. Gosh I just wish I had one more week or even one more day to be with her. 

She drove me crazy and I drove her crazy but what mother daughters don't? 

I have seen much anger built up because she pulled herself away and I didn't know how bad things were until it was too late.  

I am so grateful that God brought her into our lives. 

She was there for everything and was always ready to kick someone's ass if they hurt you in any way. 

I have so much more to say but I can't seem to put it into words. So for now I will pray my heart heals and i pray that she is watch over us. 

This photo below was taken about 3 weeks before she past our last big family outing at Zachary's graduation 

Isn't she gorgeous you couldn't even tell she was sick. Love you so much

She was so young and so beautiful! 

3 Months

3 months old and we are starting a new journey together! 

I am officially a stay at home mom! It is one of the scariest things I have ever done. The unknown is terrifying. This is going to be the best decision for my little ones. They get to be with their mommy and no one else. 

My heart is so happy that I get to spend everyday with them. 

Last night they both woke up and I just held them and we snuggled all night and I didn't have to stress about having to take them to a sitter. 

On Monday I took Bennett to the doctor because he has been throwing updo much lately it's scary ( as I am typing this he does it again and just smiles). 

The doctor checked him out and confirmed that he wasn't loosing any weight because of it. Bennett is gaining weight by the pounds ! Little man is 11 lbs 6 ozs . He is getting so big and sister is following right behind him. 

(Blake was talking to Bennett to make sure he was ok)

The pediatrician scheduled a Sono to confirm reflux for Tuesday. 

At the appt they confirmed he had reflux. It was so sad to see him laying on the table getting the sono. I know reflux is common but I hate seeing him having to go through this. 

Poor guy had to wait 2hrs past his feeding to eat . He wasn't happy with us.

The nurse called us and told us he has Gerds Diesease ... reflux. I can't imagine how he feels poor baby. 

4th of July - 11 weeks

We had our first 4th of July with the little ones and it was very uneventful! Haha 

It's just too dang hot to do anything. They are still so tiny to be out in the heat. 

I had my first mini session since coming back from maternity leave and of course my little ones had to do it! 

That Friday we went to my moms and took the littles on a walk to watch the fireworks. The Mosquitos were so bad we didn't stay out long. 

Saturday Jeremy and I relaxed most of the day. We got bored so we decided to go get groceries. 

She loves her bubbie<3

My dad and brothers and sister decided to come over so we it to hang out with them. We also invited our friend Katie over and her little one Wesley! He is getting so big! 

Aunt Katelynn took Bennett and Gentry swimming for the first time! I am mad at myself for not getting in on the pictures! I am never behind the camera. 

11 Weeks Update

Its hard for me to believe that Bennett and Gentry are 11 Weeks old. I can't imagine my days without them.
I can say it a million times but they truly are the biggest blessing. 

We started putting a tiny bit of cereal in their bottle. When I say tiny i mean tiny. 

They are growing out of their clothes so fast. I saw some of their premie outfits and they were so tiny. 

The started sleeping through the night and then somethingn changed! Not really sure what the change was. 

We had a few nights of up every hour on the hour. 

Gentry loves falling asleep right next to her daddy. It is one of her favorite spots and it calms her down almost instantly. 

Bennett loves to be with me! He is my little sidekick. There's nothing in the world better than having these two needing you. I love it. They are my heart. 

Here are a few pics from the last couple of weeks