I'm weak

I think I have wanted to test from the moment of the transfer ... I know crazy! 

I waited and waited even with everyone asking. The problem is I didn't wait long enough. 

Jeremy came home from a boys weekend fishing trip and I wanted to test with him. So we decided to take one knowing the chances. We are 7dp5dt .......too soon! 

Well we took it and it was a BFN! Then we started to research testing at this time frame and everything says stay positive 

ITS TOO EARLY! 

A client of mine posted this today! 

Be Expectant 

God's power is released when we pray in faith, trusting and believing Him, because faith pleases Him. Expectancy is an attribute of faith that carries its own kind of power - the power of hope. Faith reaches out into the spiritual realm and expects God's supernatural power to show up and do what no person on Earth could do. Doubt, on the other hand, is afraid nothing good will happen; it does not please God and is not something He is able to bless. We are powerless when we live with doubt, disappointment, and a lack of confidence in God. 

Just think about a time when you were not really sure God would come through for you. You were not able to pray very powerful prayers, were you? Now recall a time when your heart trusted completely in God and you really believed that He would come through for you. You were able to pray then with a certain sense of power, weren't you? That's the power of expectation in prayer. Even if things don't work out exactly the way you hoped they would, trust God to know what is best and keep expecting Him to do great things. 

God's word for you today: Expect God to do great things in your life and pray boldly. 

"Yes, my soul, find rest in God; my hope comes from him." (Psalm 62:5 NIV)

From the book Hearing from God Each Morning by Joyce Meyer. Copyright 2010 by Joyce Meyer. Published by FaithWords. All rights reserved.

June 25th- 2dp5dt

They were right the wait is crazy!! 

Come on BFP!! 

Today was Transfer Day!

My excited face 

Started our drive with 2 Valium  and 2 bottles of water. We arrived to the Clinic and my bladder was already about to burst! I don't feel like the Valiums worked at all. 

The embryologist took us back and explained that all of our embryos looked great !! She showed us which little embie was the one! The embryologist picked the same one Jeremy picked a few days ago! I guess when you know you know ;) He totally got lucky with that one! It happened to be a 5AA which is a near perfect egg! The others would be freezing ... 6 possibly 7 would be going to the ice age :) 

 I think he is over my pictures 

I can't wait to be this mans baby mama;)

This one shows little bit back home!! The arrow point to the embryo 

9 days from now we will have our 1st BETA! Until now I'm gonna sit on my booty cause my husband won't let me do anything! 

Tomorrow is Transfer Day

One of these little bits will be transferred back tomorrow!! I can't believe how fast this has gone. Hoping to get some sleep tonight....yea don't think that's gonna happen! Sorry for the same picture.. We won't have an update one until tomorrow. 

Progesterone shot today kinda stung :( still took it like a champ! 

We had to go to my moms to show her how to do the Shot because she is going to be my personal nurse this weekend! Jeremy gets a break ;) 

Pretty sure we freaked my mom out lol 

June 21st- Embryo Report

I don't think I can contain myself with all this excitement!! I got a call from the embryologist around 8:30AM with great news!! 

Embryos are in good to excellent quality!! 

Out of the 8 embryos 

4 are 8 cell

2 are 6 cell 

1 is 10 cell 

1 is 4 cell

On day three they want them to be between 6-10 cell

8 is ideal

Here is a little sneak peek of our sweet little embryos 

June 19th- Progesterone Shot & Vivelle Patches

So I have been dreading this day for about 14days now! I knew it was coming and I even tried to get out! I have read about Progesterone injections hurting and seen pictures of the needles!! Wowzers! I got all worked up for nothing because it wasn't bad at all. I guess I have enough cushion on my BoBo! Lol 

June 19th-Day 14 Fertilization Report

June 18th- Egg Retrieval Day -Day 12

I couldn't really sleep the night before and I'm assuming it was because I was super excited about today! That or I was so uncomfortable!

We got to the clinic about an hr early so we just sat out in the trick and waited until it was time to go in. I can't believe today is finally here!!

I checked in and they got us back right away! 

I changed into my fancy medical gown and hair cap! Let me tell you I looked FANCY! 

See I told you! 

Off to the back I go! I remember them telling me to state my name and DOB and then Dr. Doody was telling me his steps and then I don't remember anything else. 

The next thing I know I am awake and they are talking to me and asking questions. I asked how it went and they said great! I started to feel a little pain so they gave me some pain meds. I was so sleepy. Jeremy came in to help me with my clothes and then to walk me back to meet the embryologist.   

She came back and told us they got 14 eggs!! Not going to lie I thought there would be more and I think she was thinking the same thing! But she said 10-12 is great and we got 14! 

Went home and I think the pain got worse :( I slept all day 

June 17th- Follow Up from Trigger/ Blood work and injection class

Today we had blood work to follow up from our trigger shot to see how it worked. Once that was done Nikki wanted to show us how to inject progesterone ...not gonna lie I'm scared of this one! :( the needle is huge and it because it has to get to the muscle. After our appt another trigger shot was due and we did our injection outside in the parking lot. Pretty sure if the police department came by they would think we are shooting up.. ;)

For the next 2 days we have NO SHOTS! I'm stoked a little break is needed today. 

What I didn't know was that I was going to need a little extra boost of HCG 

Nikki called and said I needed to get home ASAP and take 1 more shot. So I left work and got home and called her. The shot she was looking for was not included in my giant box of meds! So I had to go all the way back to Bedford at a recommended pharmacy to get the meds. After sitting there for an hr they said it would be $290!! Umm excuse me what did you say... Lol find out they didn't have my insurance. So we added it and it went down $200! Thank god for insurance! I was too scared to do the shot by myself so I went up to the clinic and had Nikki give it to me!! Like I said before this girl is amazing!! I didn't feel a thing! 

Tomorrow is egg retrieval WHAT WHAT! 

June 16th- Estradiol Blood Work/Sono

They keep wanting to poke me! Ouch! 

I gave blood and went straight into the sono room! Nikki our nurse is beyond amazing along with everyone else in that office! I decided to ask questions today instead of going with the flow. I wanted to know how much longer my injections would be . When was I going to be able to do my trigger shot? What were all the technical terms for all this mumbojumbo. 

Follicles is where the eggs are <--- yes I didn't know that. Please don't judge :) 

As she was scanning I said I sure hope that I will have egg retrieval this week. She said umm Yea you are definitely doing trigger shot tonight!!! Which means egg retrival WEDNESDAY! All I could do was smile! I have been waiting for this day since we started! We are a day ahead of our calendar which means we are closer to knowing baby news. The only ones who understand my excitement is jeremy and others that have gone through IVF to have a baby. I guess that's all that matter right?! We are beyond thrilled to complete our little family! Jeremy and I both started to cry when I called to tell him it's trigger day!

 Nurse called ITS GO TIME!

Trigger went great! No pain

June15th- Father's Day/ Day 9 Injection

Father's Day this year I was hoping to hand Jeremy a card saying he was going to be a daddy but instead we are working towards us having a baby! 

I am so thankful for his man he is such a great husband and father to both our kids and I can't wait to see him with a baby!!

Both kids were gone to there other parents so what do to lameo's do.??? We go window shopping! Lol 

I knew we were going to be out and about all day and night so we packed our  pack pack with out own little injection kit!

After shopping I realized I left my dad's Father's Day gift at home so we ended up going home anyways! We got home a do almost forgot it again! Yeah I know what's wrong with me! 

Cats game with my dad was lots of fun! I love hanging out with him! We decided to leave the game a little early because dad's allergies were acting up and we needed to get home to do shots anyways! Our little kit was a waste lol oh well!  

Shot went fine.. They burned a little. 

Yea for us getting closer 

June 14th- Day 8 Injections/Sono/Blood work

We had our Sono early this morning to check up on the follicles. I love doing this even though it's extremely uncomfortable. I feel like it's proof that things are working in our favor. 

I need to remind myself to keep my mouth shut when talking to the nurses cause they will shut you up real quick! 

The nurse did her measurements on my right ovary and then went to the left.. The left one is hard to see so I told her "good luck with that" WRONG THING TO SAY! 

She showed me and yep it hurt!! 

My levels came back at 1474 and to stay on the same levels if our injections! No changes tonight

Shots went better tonight them they did Friday night! Jermey was still freaked out from the night before!

Days like today I can take all day long 

Jk I'm over shots ! 

June 13th - Day 7 Injections

Just another day as a human pin cushion! 

Tonight was the 1st night I totally lost it! The pain from the injections was just too much for me. They BURNED so bad! I haven't cried like this is a really long time. It was like a deep down hurt my feelings kind of cry. Poor Jeremy the whole time was like Babe please don't cry please don't! He felt so bad and it wasn't even his fault they hurt. Poor guy!! The rest of the night he was worried and I just cried myself asleep :( 

June12th-Day 6 Injections/Blood work today

Levels are looking great! Follies are growing and the Doctor said they are acting like a bat out of hell! So he did a sono to check the sizes and they are growing right on track! I'm starting to feel bloated!

Today they added Cetrotide to my injections and that means we are up to 3 injections per night! Let me tell you a little bit about cetrotide ... It burns like a MFer!! It swells and itches too! Not a fan not a fan at all! 

June 11th -Day 5 Injections

Today no blood work! We only give blood evey other day. Same shots today and my levels are going up which is a great thing. 

Gonal-f 75IUs

2 vials of Menopur 

Appt tomorrow to follow up! 

June10th- Estradiol Blood Work Day 4 injections

Today was our blood work after starting injections. I don't think I've ever be this excited about getting blood work done. I was looking forward to seeing how I responded to the meds. Shortly after my appt the nurse called me and said that our numbers (508) look fantastic and that  we needed to lower our Gonal-f injection to 75IUs  and to keep Menopur at 2 vials.

Shots done again at the same time! They seem to be getting easier each time. I'm so thankful for Jeremy because I wouldn't be able to do these without him!  I love that man more than anything! 

June 9th Day 3 of injections

We got our nightly injections out 

2 vials of Menopur 

150IUs Gonal-f 

Needle and alcohol pads 

Jeremy went to inject the Menopur and we he stuck it in it felt like a POP! It kind of hurt this time! Even Jeremy felt it because he asked "did that hurt"? Well yes it did! I wasn't expecting anything like that. Gonal-f went just fine! The last few days I wake up in the middle of the night sweating my booty off and feeling like I'm sleeping on a furnace. I think the meds are catching up to me. Tomorrow is estradiol blood levels to see if we up the dose or lower. 

June 8th Day 2 of injections

Jeremy and I got everything out 

2 vials of Menopur 

150IUs Gonal-f 

Needle and alcohol pads 

Today was a good day! Super easy and no freak outs!

I have one more night of this routine and then it's off to give blood work to see our next step! 

June 7th- the day didn't start off great!

We were scheduled for a 7:15am blood work appt to determine when we start our injections. Probably not the smartest thing I have done but I knew we had my little brothers graduation to get to by 8am so I knew we would be up. What I didn't know was how late the Ranger game was going to last. We got home by 12am and I couldn't sleep! The next morning my alarm went off at like 5:30AM and that wasn't happening so I turned it off! BAD CHOICE! I didn't wake back up until 6:30AM! We looked good for getting dressed in 15mins 

We got the call back from the nurse and WE ARE A GO TO START INJECTIONS! 

Time for injections:

Jeremy and I got everything out 

2 vials Of Menopur 

225 IUs of Gonal-f

Needles 

Alcohol wipes 

After everything was out and mixed I started to freak out! I couldn't believe it was all starting. I cried like a big baby and for no reason other than being scared.

The shots were not bad at all

Menopur  kind of stung for a minute 

Gonal-f was easy until jeremy realized not all of it was out and re stuck me! We survived our first injection night! Wahoo!

June 3- Today was Baseline/Sono and injection overview

Well since I was going to be taking a longer lunch I decided to come into work a little early. When I got in things were a little out of whac. People seemed tense.... There was a reason they were laying people off! Today of all days! The group I am apart of were the ones let go. YIKES! Bad timing for a Doctor appt right?!? It was a pretty stressful morning not knowing if I was going to be the next one. We arrived at my appt and they got me back right away. My bladder wasn't full enough for a mock transfer so I had to sit there and drink 3 bottles of water. Let me tell you on a empty stomach of stress lol it wasn't the greatest feeling. The embryologist came in and talked to us about what to expect and the process of the egg retrieval and transfer. The nurse came in and did a sono to see if my cervix was thin and to check ovaries. She said everything was good there. Next mock transfer- that crap was so uncomfortable! I think full bladder hurts more then giving blood! I rather get poked a million times! After that mess was over we met with the nurse to go over injections. It was lots of information to absorb but I think we got it! Well atleast jeremy does :) Saturday is blood test to determine if shots start that night!

 

June 2-

Tomorrow is our Baseline/Sono Appt! We are so excited!

May 28th- injections have arrived!

I think I'm starting to freak out! These needles are huge! 

May 27th- IVF is paid for IVF calendar has been made!

Everything is paid for I'am so thankful for insurance at this moment! 

Our calendar has been made so it will give us some sort of timeline!

May 22 -Things are getting real!

Injections and pills have been ordered

Vacation and wondering what comes next May 2014

Vacation was great and we definitely needed it! We took a carnival cruise to Cozumel,Mexico. Personally not the biggest fan of cruises but I would go on another if it had multiple stops ours only had one. Not enought beach time for us! It was still gorgeous and I can't wait to go back! We did some snorkeling and was able to see some pretty cool looking fish. 

When we got back home we were scheduled for a consult with Dr.Doody. He said our best bet in getting pregnant would be IVF. We are going for it! Why not right! 

So the next step is waiting for AF to show. After being 17days late it decided to make an apperence. May 25th is the day we started our IVF Journey to Baby Lewis! 

Hysteroscopy Polypectomy Month April 2014

It was an outpatient minimally invasive procedure. Pretty scary day I freak myself out with stuff like getting put under more needles. There was no need because nothing was done or removed! No polyps and everything looked great. I'm in the clear for now!